First Off, I have been failing at writing in my blog for the past year... and I don't have a good excuse.
Secondly, this year still hasn't been the best of years, I suppose that I am doing better than I was a month or two ago, but I'm still not doing awesome.
I spend my time, either working, or hanging out alone with my cat and dog....each day getting closer and closer to crazy cat lady status. Even now as I write this I am sitting in my bed alone..no pets....not sure where they are...
Not much has changed, I have two jobs, my weekday job is slowly eating away at my soul and my weekend job allows me to pet puppies and fall in love with kitties, you would think that it would kind of balance out, but all in all I am not happy with my working situation, but I came up with a "Solution" and that solution is that I will allow myself to quit my weekday job at the end of June, even if I don't have a weekday job to replace it....and I have started the count down...and two of the weeks between now and then will be vacation weeks and speaking of vacation.....I have NO IDEA what I am going to do with my time off. The initial plan was that I was going to clean the house, and get things done as we were going to put the house on the market in May, but that may no longer be the case. Now Daniel, my brother, might buy half the house, to lessen the financial stress on my dad without us having to move. I'm still not sure how I feel about it, especially since we have been putting in work into the house, I painted my room and cleared things out to the point where my room doesn't even feel like my room, so I don't know how I will feel if I end up not having to move. So if I dont have to move I dont know how I will spend my week off...sadly I think I will spend the majority of it alone. I would like to go out and do things but that is easier said than done when you have no one to really go with, I guess its the downside to being single with non single friends, and the downside to getting older and growing a bit apart from your friends, I was always told that it happens but I was determined that it wouldnt happen to me, but it kind of has. I love my friends and when we are together it is awesome but the fact of the matter is that I don't see them very often, I dont even communicate with them as much as I thought I would and it's sad.
Actually writing about this is making me sad, I feel alone, I have all these ideas of things that would be fun or things I would want to do, but there is only so much you can do on your own......
