Still Not the Best of Years.....

First Off,  I have been failing at writing in my blog for the past year... and I don't have a good excuse.

Secondly, this year still hasn't been the best of years, I suppose that I am doing better than I was a month or two ago, but I'm still not doing awesome.

I spend my time, either working, or hanging out alone with my cat and dog....each day getting closer and closer to crazy cat lady status. Even now as I write this I am sitting in my bed alone..no pets....not sure where they are...


Not much has changed, I have two jobs, my weekday job is slowly eating away at my soul and my weekend job allows me to pet puppies and fall in love with kitties, you would think that it would kind of balance out, but all in all I am not happy with my working situation, but I came up with a "Solution" and that solution is that I will allow myself to quit my weekday job at the end of June, even if I don't have a weekday job to replace it....and I have started the count down...and two of the weeks between now and then will be vacation weeks and speaking of vacation.....I have NO IDEA what I am going to do with my time off.  The initial plan was that I was going to clean the house, and get things done as we were going to put the house on the market in May, but that may no longer be the case.  Now Daniel, my brother, might buy half the house, to lessen the financial stress on my dad without us having to move.  I'm still not sure how I feel about it, especially since we have been putting in work into the house, I painted my room and cleared things out to the point where my room doesn't even feel like my room, so I don't know how I will feel if I end up not having to move.  So if I dont have to move I dont know how I will spend my week off...sadly I think I will spend the majority of it alone.  I would like to go out and do things but that is easier said than done when you have no one to really go with, I guess its the downside to being single with non single friends, and the downside to getting older and growing a bit apart from your friends, I was always told that it happens but I was determined that it wouldnt happen to me, but it kind of has.  I love my friends and when we are together it is awesome but the fact of the matter is that I don't see them very often, I dont even communicate with them as much as I thought I would and it's sad.

Actually writing about this is making me sad, I feel alone, I have all these ideas of things that would be fun or things I would want to do, but there is only so much you can do on your own......

Not My Best Year, thus far.

I think it is important that I get back into blogging as it will give me the opportunity the let thing out and put my thoughts out there into the magical interwebz world, and who knows, perhaps it will be beneficial.  So I haven't done any blogging since back in September and I think there are a few reasons for that, mainly I got busy with a new job, and got very down about my life, and why blog if you feel as though you have nothing to share....

So what was missed in the last few months of 2013?
 Firstly, I got the Job at Ambius as a plant care specialist, and in time I have learned that it is in no way a job for me, it is boring and could be done by a monkey, but the pay is decent so I am trying to stick it out.  The rest of 2013 wasn't exciting, I spent it working Monday-Friday and not doing much else aside from working, I didnt really see anyone and ended up getting quite sick the week before Christmas.  And I guess the last part of 2013 was New Years Eve, which was quite possibly the most depressing New Years Eve I have had in my 22 years of life.....
I was hoping that I would not be abandoned on New Years, but sadly it happened...I had bought a really pretty new red dress with the intention of wearing it for new years, and I did put it on and I got dressed up and took a few shameless mirror selfies....and then I sat on the couch in my dress, eventually got cold and put my bathrobe on over the dress and moped on the couch with my Dad, eventually I gave up on even attempting to celebrate the New Year and Crawled into bed at about 10pm.  I spent my New years essentially alone in my bed, the fireworks at midnight let me know that the New Year had begun.
Why was I alone on New Years? I suppose it has to do with the fact that my friends have other friends, and jobs and significant others and I guess in all that some people get forgotten and I guess this New Years I was one of the forgotten people.....

So now it's the New Year and what can I say about 2014 so far.
I can say that I entered they year alone, and mildly depressed and things haven't really improved.  I picked up a weekend job so I would have something to force me out of bed on the weekends.  It's a job as a "Pet Detective" for Blue Buffalo pet food.  Essentially I hang out in a pet store in Surrey and talk to people about their pets and such.  I like the fact that at least I get to have some type of social interaction at my second job.
I can say that my mom left for Jamaica with Mike a little over a week ago so I am watching her house, cat and dog.  This has resulted in me spending more time alone as I am alone with only pets in my mom's house.
I can say that Tuesday Mornings seem to hate me.  Last Tuesday I fell down the stairs and this Tuesday I burnt the crap out of my hand...bad things happen in threes so I wonder what will happen next Tuesday......
I can say that I have gone from mildly depressed to quite depressed, it even reached a point where yesterday when I was at the doctor for my hand, I brought the issue up with my Doctor, and she made some recomendations:
    1. Exercise, at least 15 minutes a day
    2. Make plans with friends, at least two little plans a week
    3. Set Goals
    4. Take Omega-3's
    5. Talk to someone
So far I am taking Omega 3's, I have been walking my moms dog three times at day, and yesterday Kristy came over for Dinner, so I suppose I am making progress, but I am still not feeling awesome, I am still down...
I can say that due to the burns on my hand today is my second day not working and I am actually enjoying the break, my hand is feeling better but I don't know if I'm ready to lug watering cans with it yet...only time will tell.

I will try to keep better track of 2014, and hopefully things will begin to look up....